What tha bizniz iz people...............yeh i know i ain't wrote in the book since the day after christmas.....ya point? To jus let ya know how things been the past 3 or so weeks...Over the holiday I did a whole bunch of self evaluating.....i really got a wholebunch of things sorted out in my head....feels good to have erything make sense.i suggest erybody do the same thing.

As New Year's resolutions me and my boy Dem decided to start over in terms of females. We each had to delete 10 of the girls we use to mess with outta our phonebook. (Damn, a bruh soud like a G, when you chose to disconnect wit 10 girls) Some of em was hard to let go of.......especially Ms. Hey Ya....but in order to make progress you gotta get rid of the dead weight so that's what the big homey done did....Came back to school and picked up a few replacement numbers, but I ain't even sure i'ma use em or not . May sound grimey, but I figure I shouldn't jus waste anybody elses time if I'm not genuinely interested......What else is new...uhh i jus completed the most horrible week ever...I broke my phone...lost over 140 numbers....tough tough tough ....and My Falcons lost.....good ass season though.....We had a lil fish fry on the sunday before MLK day....it was a success. Lots of good music ad good foods.I even made barebcue baked beans....shit was extra scrumptious....a lil issue  though. I have two best friends.....U always see us together. Being a only child, they closest things i got to brothers. Anyway...among us I'm usuallt the one who is most likely to be MIA from the group due to females or what not...but as i said earlier, I'm taken it real easy right now...well, since we done got back to school, both my boys done got girls...crazy, yo.....So I been dolo more than I anticipated.....i guess I'ma have to cut my me time short...get back out into the playing field...but that's enough for now.I just had to update the page since i got folks stoppinme in the streets askin me bout my page......I'll hit ya'll up later on.

My people, My people......where do i begin.....I guess I'll start it off by lettin ya know that this break from school has turned a boy into a str8 bum....here it is Wednesday, I ain't left my house (except to go to the store) since Sunday.....I ain't talked on the phone to nobody, I ain't did no work........just been gettin my head together cuz some real 'off time' is somethin that I just don't get...I haven't took it easy since the summer b4 i started high school and TRUST....this time of has really allowed me to make sense of alot of things..........I would suggest everybody take a lil time off from the world........it really does help.

.............And what else is new......ah ha......I talked to my nigga Cool Breeze 2day.....told me that I'm gonna get really shitfaced on some shit with the young lady I mentioned earlier.....told me he talked to her today and she made a comment to the effect that she "gonna have to give up a bunch of the things she does cuz her friends got mad at her and stopped dealing with her cuz she stayed busy, and that 'people' be treatin her funny and don't call her no more, yadda yadda yadda".....The comment is innocent enough, but in talkin to my nigga, he brought up that she sounded more like she was trying to SAY somethin instead of just SAYING somethin....ya feel me....like it was some underlying meaning......she is fully aware of the fact that me and Breeze is like brothers from different mothers, and it would make sense that she said that to him knowing it would get back to me.....goofy right? It's been said that I still got a lil thing for this particular young lady, and from some lil birdies I ain't told ya about yet.....she was wanting to me to step, even while she was blowing me off.....girls is CRAZY!!!But shit, just when things start making sense, things stop making sense.........I'm out......

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I promised you all a lil sample of my poetry my last time around so here goes a one i'ma freestyle (yeh, we do that in poetry) about basically where i think i am in life....here goes nothin.......

I erased myself from many memories so tears don't have to fall

The joyous days are few as it seems my happiness is destined to die in sorrow                                                      

 Tomorrow has nothing promised, still I'm afraid to go outside  

Cause the comforts of my home are a certain barrier to all that oppose me

Not that I'm punkin out, it's plenty of man in me 

But as a man, I realize it's no need to force myself into suffering     

Unless I choose to become the world's strongest man   

And I'm content with not dealing with those things that eat at my very being       

And contort my essence and steal my blessings

Truths so deep, the Reverend ask me to help him out 

So I stayed away from church    

Cause althogh God watches over, I am convinced that this is where the greatest beast lurks         

It's been said that what God has built a man can never break

So how do you explain my spirit                                             

It's been said that what God has loved, a man can never hate   

So how do explain the deliverance of today  

Cause I despise every sunrise

A today that keeps me inside, away from the world   

And away from those memories which erase me

I ain't got a name for it yet......please help me out wit that........better yet, if you can figure out the bigger metaphor of the whole poem, gone 'head and let ya boy know wassup.

As far as the personal stuff goes....I got a best friend, who we will call Cool Breeze, who is intent on making my life a living hell. Not literally, but its one of them lil stupid competitions fellas have. We always are throwin old issues with old girls and whatnot in each others face, and it seemed I had the card blanche in that one of his exes ended up being one of my better female friends (str8 platonic).Anyway, they both get super silly and half mad when they are around me and each other at the same time, cuz its like a automatic joke that I don't even have to tell no more (these are the funniest ones)...Anyway....I had a lil non-issue wit a young lady I wanted to get with....a non issue meaning I never had the chance to get at her like I wanted and she more or less blew the G off when I made the effort to talk to her.......she said it was cuz she was always busy, but i figured she was givin me that nice "no thank you". The goofiest part is how I still got a thing for ole girl, but you know how once you put yaself out on a limb once, you kinda be gun shy about crawling back out on the same limb.....its been awkward hellos and silences since I decided to ease up. Anyway, my boy is now intent on makin friends wit this young lady .........got her number and stuff over the Christmas break..........all so that he can try and keep her in my face the same way I have his sorta-ex around him all the time.....Niggas is goofy farreal, got to much time on they hands.

Speaking of goofy, My nigga C-bo ain't gon be returnin to HU with the rest of the squad.....Since freshman year, my whole lil crew seem to loses a bunch of folks ery semester.......so shout out to my niggas who still around and who still down even though we can't kick it how we use to.....Rizzle, Cool Breeze, Stan, Demarrius......how the hell we go from 30 deep to bout 5....lol......I guess at freshman orientation when they said look to the left and look to the right and then told us one these people won't be here when it comes graduation time they weren't lying.....must've walked on Ogden Circle.